Collection: 2011​-​2014

by Jeff Straw

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released January 15, 2015

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Track Name: Song for Sam
Well, I hear you're an artist... though I'm not sure what that means.
But I assume that makes you prone to thinking strange things.
So, is every blade of grass a tiny, flimsy spring?
The sun nothing more than a deep-fried tangerine?

There's something I should've told you everyday since we've met:
The world's been on fire since you took your first steps.
Now it's burn, baby, burn through all present tense
'Cause your gypsy mind's the only thing that makes sense.

Never a burden, only a breeze.
You're the late summer wind freeing fresh autumn leaves.
A beacon of light in any semblance of dusk.
So take nothing for granted and live how you love.
Take nothing for granted and live how you love.
Track Name: Lord, I Am Fixin' to Die
Lord, I am fixin' to die.
Lord, won't you hear my bleating sigh?
Lord, find some pity for the man I have become.
Though I'm older now, I still don't know how to love.

I found a girl in Phoenix and one in Fondelac.
The latter said she loved me, but she'd lust behind my back.
The former felt too friendly, and with my friends she got frisky.
I liked those girls, but they weren't good to me.

Oh, Lord, please forgive me.
Though I know you can't conceive what I have done.
Oh, Lord, please extend to a lost son.
The grace and mercy of the Noble One.

I had my first in Tulsa after way too much to drink.
We fought in the back alley; afterward he couldn't speak.
I took my knife and out of spite, I left him cold as ice.
Through most my life, I hadn't thought about it twice.

Another was in Bangor; the reason wasn't known.
We drove out to the country; he was shaken to his bones.
I left him there in a far-off field, buried like a dog.
He was kind enough, but I still didn't think it wrong.

Oh, Lord, did you expect me
To never find the errors in my ways?
Oh, Lord, I expel all of my scorn.
Grant me gifts of God's good, gracious morn.

I had a girl in Hiko. We were together for a spell.
From the churchyard to the pictures, we would always kiss and tell.
We were newly engaged and I was newly enraged when her personality changed.
I liked that girl, but I couldn't be rearranged.

They caught me outside Reno, with her body in a bag.
We were sitting at the reservoir - she took a swim as I took a drag.
The sirens screamed; I started to flee and was bit by a silver slug.
When they asked me why, I said, "I'd much rather be in love."

The mile's long… uncomfortably calm, but no, it's not that green.
Compared to the fields and trees me and my victims might have seen.
The needle's steel, but the poison feels familiar to my blood.
Though I'm dying now, I still don't know how to love.

Oh, Lord, won't you spare me?
I don't deserve this life, but there's more to Us than that.
Oh, Lord, I intend to be reformed,
Grant me innocence of life reborn.

Lord, I am fixin' to die.
Lord, won't you hear my pleading cries?
Lord, show some sympathy, and send me t'wards the sun.
Though I'm dying now, I still don't know how to love.
Love me, Lord. Please teach me how to love.
Track Name: Today
Most days I worry.
Most days I hurry.
But that's not today.
Today I'll tarry.
Rest and be marry.
And mend my fragile frame.

Breathe deeply.
Speak sweetly.
Sorrow can wait.
Laugh wholly.
Love boldly.
Life is ornate.

When I am troubled,
I'll burst my bubble.
Sympathy's my friend.
I'll not be weaker
Than silence-seekers.
My words can make amends.

Breathe deeply.
Speak sweetly.
Sorrow can wait.
Laugh wholly.
Love boldly.
Life is ornate.

Most days I hurry.
Most days I worry.
But that's not today.
Today I'll wake up.
Remove the make-up
And show my honest face
With grace.
Track Name: I Wish I Had a Lonesome Lover
If I could paint the world with her love,
I'd wander in fields of green.
If I could hold her silhouette,
Her eyes could sparkle in the darkest seas.
When she kissed my lips, I'd know
I never need no other.
Ohh, I wish I had a lonesome lover.

If I could paint the world with her smile,
The days would dance like autumn leaves.
When she said, "I love you dear,"
The wind would whisper her song back to me.
When she held me tight, I'd know
I never need no other.
Ohh, I wish I had a lonesome lover.

She'd love me still, though her heart was filled.
No matter how well-undeserved.
'Cause we both would've learned,
Through all of our hurt,
There's nothing more important on this earth.

If I could paint the world with her love,
I'd wander in fields of green.
If I could hold her silhouette,
Her eyes could sparkle in the darkest seas.
When she kissed my lips, I'd know
I never need no other.
Ohh, I wish I had a lonesome lover.